自適處

First Self-made Sky Lantern 孔明燈

2012-01-10T17:13:00.000-08:00

Date: Secondary 2 or 3?
Location: Forgot which field
Event: Sky Lantern Competition organized by Sam Tet School, Ipoh, Malaysia

You need a permit from the government if you want to fly a sky lantern in Malaysia. But thanks to Sam Tet School who did that for all and gave many a chance to fly sky lanterns together. I think the event was really amazing, in a small town like Ipoh.

It's not easy to make a successful sky lantern, measurements must be accurate and balanced for the lantern to rise. Otherwise if it tilts, it burns. We tied a big piece of wax at the bottom to burn and produce hot air. And I wonder where the lanterns actually went after the wax finished burning.

When I look back, I think my lantern design was really bad. I'm sorry my fellow competition partners, Mei Theen and Yeng Yeng. But I hope we had an unforgettable time together. :)

First Time Firing A Gun ^o^

2012-01-09T01:36:00.000-08:00

Date: 27-30 December 2003

Location: Batalion ke-23 Rejimen Askar Melayu Diraja, Kem Gua Permai, Malaysia (Royal Malay Regiment Batallion No. 23, Gua Permai Camp)

Event: Kem Percubaan Khidmat Negara (National Service Camp Trial)

I have never regretted that I joined Youth Cadet in secondary school, despite making myself a boyish girl in terms of appearance (dark skinned and a bit muscular because of regular marching), behaviour (not as gentle and soft as girls) and character.

Youth Cadet linked me to Gerakan Belia Bersatu Malaysia. I was once quite active in their activities and the National Service Camp Trial was unforgettably fun! It was during the period that National Service concept was first introduced (don't compare Malaysia's NS with Singapore's or other countries, you will laugh. But it's okay, cause we have "different objectives".)

In fact, after the camp, I thought I would be selected to join NS. But in the end I wasn't, so I should thank GBBM for giving me a chance to experience at least a camp trial. :))

One of the most memorable experiences was gun-firing!!! I can never forget how excited I was. I can still recall that the army gave us 5 empty bullets for our first firing. The first shot was loud enough to make my ears deaf (and there were many shots all together as many of us were firing at the same time). I didn't know if how's the results of my shots, I just knew that I couldn't hear anything at all and was totally lost in the army's instructions.

After that 5 empty bullets, they gave us another 20 real ones! Wewwww!!! Actually I didn't remember how well I shot, I just remember that the long gun was rather heavy. ><" The instructor showed me that there are 2 modes - one for single shot, one for continuous automatic shots. LOL. How I wish to try that continuous shots like one we always watch in action movies!!! Haha but we were not allowed try that. The burning-hot bullet shells kept popping out to my ears after each shot from my neighbour, ouchhh!

After firing I only realized that the army used the used/ empty bullet shells to stuff into their ears to protect their eardrums. But I don't understand why they didn't give us the protection for our ears. ><"

The above picture was just posing. The guns were real but there were no bullets in them. Ohyea, according to the army, the gun we fired is called Steyr, but not M-16. :D

The above individual shot was not my first time firing a gun, but second, with our Cadet group during a visit to the army camp. It was not really fun this time, my shoulder hurt because of the inertia. My posture wasn't correct too.

First Time Playing Angklung

2012-01-08T08:25:00.000-08:00

Date: 6 September 2011 (Tuesday)

Location: Function Room 1, Prince George's Park Residences, NUS

Event: "Klung.. klung.. klung.." by Residence 5 and OSA

I have been indeed emotionally attached to PGP, the hostel that I have stayed throughout my four-year undergraduate life. Even after I graduated and moved out of PGP, I can't believe that I still go back for activities sometimes.

One of them was an Angklung session. It was pretty fun, organized by Residence 5 under 100-minute series. OSA invited NUS Angklung to conduct the one-day "training", most of them are Indonesians (as Angklung is one of Indonesia's traditional musics). Interestingly, the President of the group was actually once one of my Cluster Leaders. :D

Introduction and some interesting facts about Angklung:

The Angklung is a musical instrument made of two bamboo tubes attached to a bamboo frame. The tubes are carved to have a resonant pitch when struck and are tuned to octaves. The base of the frame is held in one hand, whilst the other hand shakes the instrument rapidly. This causes a repeating note to sound. Each of three or more performers in an angkalung ensemble play just one note or more, but altogether complete melodies are produced. The Angklung is popular throughout Southeast Asia, but it originated in today's Indonesia and has been played by the Sundanese for many centuries.

The word "angklung" was originated from Sundanese "angkleung-angkleungan", that means the movement of angklung player and the sound "klung" that comes from the instrument.

Another theory suggested that the word "angklung" was formed from two Balinese words - angka and lung. Angka means "tone", and lung means "broken" or "lost". Angklung thus means an "incomplete tone".

<http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angklung>

Well, Angklung isn't really that strange to me at all. I knew this musical instrument and heard its performance since secondary school. Unfortunately I did not find it interesting until I graduated from university. ><"

That night we played Rasa Sayang and one that I can hardly remember its song name (is a Philipino song, right?) >< Ohyea, my first time, playing 3 nodes together too! It's heavy~ but I like it!

Look at our big smiles, you will know that we really had a "fantabulous" time playing together! I had a great time catching up with our friendly RAds and RAs too. Unexpected I made quite a few new friends too!

PGPRians! Stop hiding yourself in your own cubicle! Come out and experience new things lar~ Somemore it's all free (sponsored by OSA Residential Life, don't waste mah!) :))

View a short slip of our fun here! A beautiful song~
<https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10150291256794475>

First Lunch with Nantah Lake 南大湖

2012-01-05T22:03:00.000-08:00

遠離飯堂的嘈雜與油煙味
我“打包”菜飯後走到南大湖的身邊
這對我老闆來説有著若干回憶的湖畔

石凳石桌上怡然鋪著枯褐干枝落葉
環繞身旁的還有許多在辛勤勞動的大紅蟻
這大紅蟻大概由於鮮少有人在午飯時間來這青草地問津
一見我即大口大口地咬吮在我的腳上
以示歡迎（還是在防禦侵略？）
未來得及攝下大紅蟻在我腳上興奮的齒跡
作爲紀念（或證據？）
神經綫經已示意我得拒絕它的熱情！

我想
這世上應該無人願意陪我跟南大湖來個午餐約會吧？
有唧唧鳥鳴伴奏的午飯固然詩情畫意
但卻有誰願意冒著枝葉鳥金等意外的調味的險啊？
這年代
還有誰願意不凃防曬
來暴曬在紅紫外綫下戶外野餐？

正也許無人伴隨
方才有機會獨處思考（噢？真的有思考嗎？）
享受當下的大自然

玆將我的第一次戶外午餐獻給南大湖
唯一缺憾只是用了不環保的保麗龍飯盒！
地球啊謝謝你給的美好
我下次不敢了 :)

First Hakka Lui Cha 客家擂茶 in Singapore

2012-01-05T17:49:00.000-08:00

Date: 5 January 2012 (Thursday)
Location: Boon Lay Place Food Village

Thank Tan Jo for his recommendation. Finally found something similar, comparable, even better than what I had in Ipoh! I am a Hakka myself (Hepo origin 祖籍河婆) and I really love this traditional cuisine of ours.

My mother is a Hakka too but she is of Meixian 梅县 origin, yet she cooked Lui Cha often when we (siblings) were a kid. The procedures are rather troublesome and time-consuming, as there are many types of vegetables to be "Lui" (processed). However, I guess we had a great time helping our mother to cook this meanwhile preserving our own cuisine culture.

Let me quote this from Wikipedia to know what it is all about:

Lei cha (Chinese: 擂茶; pinyin: léi chá; literally "pounded tea") is a Hakka tea-based beverage or gruel consisting of a mix of tea leaves and herbs that are ground or pounded together with various roasted nuts, seeds, and grains. The tea is drunk for breakfast or on cold winters as a tasty and healthy restorative. Lei cha is very popular in Taiwan, Southern China, Malaysia as well as any locales with a substantial Hakka diaspora population. Traditionally lei cha is a savory brew; in contemporary interpretations it is often consumed as a sweet drink.

<http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lei_cha>

Glad that there are still people in Singapore enjoying this traditional cuisine. In my opinion, it tastes better than what I had in Ipoh, as its namecard says "Less Oil. Less Salt. No MSG". I agree with that.

The only unfortunate thing is they have raised $1 from 01/01/2012 onwards and they are charging $3.00 for a bowl for white rice (brown rice $3.50; take away add extra $0.20). Meaning it used to be $2.00 (Oh my, so cheap! ><). Nevertheless, the portion is rather huge (for a girl's diet). I had it as breakfast and it was very filling. And what my friend said is right - it is one of the dishes that you can get with hot soup (in a cold morning). Even if you tapao (take it away) to your company, you just need to add boiling water to the green peanut paste and you can enjoy a warm bowl of fresh Lui Cha!

Refer to their namecard here for opening hours and more details. :))

First Freshmen Orientation Camp in NUS, Singapore

2012-01-04T02:47:00.000-08:00

Date: (can hardly remember) July 2007
Location: NUS and Singapore

Yes, we call it FOC (not Free Of Charge yeah!) here in Singapore, Freshmen Orientation Camp! I forgot if I attended any FOC back in Malaysia. One thing for sure, I will never forget this one! And if it was not because Kai Jian who persuaded me to join, I think I would not have the courage to take the first step to interact with the locals here. Thanks, Kai Jian!

It's also called O Week - Orientation Week, as the whole week before school started was filled with activities. One of them was Jalan-jalan Cari Makan! My first time food exploring in Singapore, frankly speaking I found the food extremely awful, that time. (sorry my fellow Singaporeans, I just hadn't got used to it!)

Acting blur. In fact there were many lengzais and lengluis in my OG (Orientation Group). I can still remember, they spoke English really fast that I could hardly hear what they were talking about, so I was the only one not laughing at the jokes they made. They said, I was really odd to them. Hmmm...

Acting drunk on the street in daytime. Gosh! The beer bottles were picked up from the roadside. If I am not mistaken, it should be one of the tasks for the food race. LOL.

The most fun activity is always in the last day - the Finale. I love playing paints, on body, heeee... Ohyea, our OG was called ROTA, but I have forgotten my small group name. R for Red. :))

I almost cannot recognize myself when digging out the pictures. I could be really crazy as that.

Before and after. One of the cute and friendly Singaporeans I met. And she has become very pretty now!!!

Missing those days.

Senior told us there are only two times in your study term that you can enter University Cultural Centre Hall - One is in the beginning for Inaugural Ceremony; the last is for Commencement (Graduation Ceremony). I attended both (yeah!) but in fact I entered more than twice. One to a UCC free concert, another reason is because I worked for Co-op Gown Project.

Oh wow, I was fatter then than now! > <

Không hối tiếc

2011-12-23T02:14:00.000-08:00

Người ta nói rằng, một người càng già thì sẽ càng thích nhớ đến những ngày trước, đặc biệt là những phút giây khó quên. Hình như là bây giờ mình thấy già rồi, trong lòng...

Hôm nay đột nhiên mình nhớ đến các người yêu cũ của mình (không nhiều đâu, chỉ có 2 người thôi). Mặc dù bây giờ mình không còn cảm xúc tình yêu cho họ nữa, nhưng khi biết bây giờ họ còn khoẻ và sống hạnh phúc thì mình sẽ thấy yên tâm vui vẻ rồi.

Cám ơn họ đã xuất hiện trong cuộc sống của mình, dạy cho mình biết tình yêu không phải là một điều đơn giản. Nhưng mà mình sẽ không từ bỏ hy vọng.

Giờ đây mình chỉ có một điều hối tiếc - mình đã đốt hết những bức thư mà người yêu đầu tiên viết cho mình. Không còn nhớ nội dung là gì, chỉ biết nếu bây giờ đọc lại, mình sẽ cảm thấy buồn cười và cảm động quá, và quý trọng giờ đây nhiều hơn. :)

爭取什麽

2011-11-23T20:29:00.000-08:00

不是所以你想要的東西
就必須要去主動爭取
最後就必定會得到的
別忘了
有很多東西不屬於你
就別去爭取
免得最後遍體鱗傷

要知道
不去爭取
並不是被動
並不是怕輸
並不是懦弱
並不是消極
並不是膽小
只是
有些東西
真的不屬於你！
死心吧！

Có nhiều thứ trên thế giới không thuộc về chính mình.
Đừng miễn cưỡng. : )

記憂鬱前夕

2011-11-21T18:09:00.000-08:00

有很多話不敢，也不可能說。

只好悄悄把它藏在心裏。

牛一

2011-11-10T09:39:00.000-08:00

好時光總如流水匆匆而去

還好做了一天的皇帝感覺溫馨備至

前天屋主已捎來意外驚喜

只是室友早已迫不及待地發了個簡訊過來

把意外驚喜給先揭穿了

不過我仍然會覺得分外開心

至少我知道

屋主有心想要維持一段良好的屋主租客關係

之前的恩怨抱怨埋怨

就此像粉筆字一樣擦去吧

一個多月的修行總算沒有白費

這是離開大學的第一個牛一

猶記得前四年的牛一都有朋友為我慶生

第一年最難忘的吧

皆是迎新會認識的朋友

現在就只有跟康蕊維持最“親密”關係

“親密”到無所不談

原來我們的友情已有四個年頭了

第二第三年第四年的

若不去翻翻舊照仔細回憶的話

我想我大概不記得了

但不代表我忘記了朋友帶給我的歡樂和感動

尤其是那一班同甘共苦三年之久的RAs

還有一些摯友

今年已沒有RAs在身邊

有的是屋主的精致蛋糕

摯友Mandy早已送來的小禮物

室友精心為我準備的三文治早餐和“生日海報”

屋主可愛女兒的生日歌

屋主的印尼傭人的短訊祝福

屋友的口頭祝福

爹娘的愛心短訊

和同事的午餐

姐姐的“提醒她才送來”的MSN祝福

朋友在MSN和Facebook上的留言

同事一番心意的一小片蛋糕

當然少不了犧牲他整個晚上的圓哥哥

還要他破費送禮物和請客

我真過意不去不知該怎麽答謝才好

感謝《那些年，我們一起追過的女孩》帶給我的歡笑

也感謝並肩而坐一起開懷大笑的圓哥哥

嗯不止呢

陸續而來的應該還有今天

屋友說要來個水果大餐

因爲全屋都是女生比較不敢大魚大肉

星期六還有跟康蕊的姐妹talk約會

這個牛一雖然簡單

但足以難忘倍覺窩心

做了一天的皇帝明天有要好好努力工作了！

To me

記離開大學的第一個生日

（嗯，今早哥哥老遠從澳洲傳來祝福短訊，開心死我了！希望哥哥早點買下自己的家，娶個專一又漂亮的大嫂給我，就是我最好的生日願望了。）

錯的人

2011-11-02T17:53:00.000-07:00

明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真正的可笑

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身

明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真的真正的可笑

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身

可能在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能寧願笨也不想要悔恨

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我相信有點可能

寧願笨也不想要悔恨？

Nhớ quê

2011-10-25T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hy vọng lần này về quê
có thể vui sống với mẹ
trong nam ngày có hạn này...

Mình tin
mình có thể làm điều này

這個月修行了多少
就以這次回家做一次評估吧！

等我

怡保樹 Cây Ipoh

Đây là cuộc sống...

2011-10-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

Sáng nay mình nghĩ

hôm nay là một ngày hạnh phúc, một ngày vui và đẹp

Ai biết chiều nay nghe được một tin xấu

làm cho mình thấy buồn lắm

vì trái tim chị ấy bị tổn thương

Chồng của chị ấy không chung thủy...

Chị ấy buồn kinh khủng...

Niềm vui là

2011-10-18T21:09:00.000-07:00

Niềm vui là
khi chúng ta mang niềm vui đến cho những người khác
đặc biệt là những người bất hạnh hơn chúng ta...

(:

Hạnh phúc là...

2011-10-18T01:45:00.000-07:00

Hạnh phúc là

mặc dù không có người yêu

mà có bạn thân nấu ăn sáng cho mình

thì sẽ thấy cảm động lắm!

Mẹ sẽ không hiểu

2011-10-17T21:08:00.000-07:00

Không biết là đang tìm người yêu cho chính mình
hay là đang tìm con rể cho mẹ đấy?

Mỗi khi gặp một người chính mình thích.
có phải "đo" người ấy "bằng thước kẻ của mẹ" không?
Có phải thấy người ấy có phù hợp tiêu chuẩn của mẹ không?

Bố mẹ nào mà không mong các con vui và hạnh phúc vậy?
Nhưng...

Thế giới này đẹp vì những gì trên thế giới không hoàn mỹ.
Bao nhiêu người trên thế giới này phù hợp tất cả điều kiện của chúng ta?
Dù số nhiều, nhưng bao nhiêu sẽ xuất hiện trong cuộc sống của chúng ta?

Mẹ ơi.
Con còn nhớ lúc đó mẹ vỗ tay và vui cười,
khi con cho biết con mới chia tay với bạn trai...
Tự lúc đó, con không còn dám nữa... không còn dám bắt đâu tình yêu mới cả...
vì không biết người nào "thích hợp"...
"phù hợp khẩu vị của mẹ"
Chị là ví dụ làm con sợ...

Mẹ ơi, con nên làm như thế nào ơi?
Hay là mẹ muốn con làm như thế nào đấy?

不純粹是兩個人的事

2011-10-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

我們都可能因爲膚色、語言、背景的不同

而錯過了相愛的機會

因爲戀愛、婚姻不純粹是兩個人的事

朋友，願我們都能幸福。:)

Tự yêu mình

2011-10-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

Sống một mình ở Singapo,

đó là quyết định mình đã làm 4 năm trước.

Nếu bây giờ cuộc sống không vui không hợp ý,

mình cũng không được phàn nàn ai hay cái gì khác.

Dù cuộc sống cô đơn và hơi buồn,

không ai có trách nhiệm làm cho chúng ta vui.

Dù trong cuộc sống không ai yêu,

không ai có trách nhiệm cho chúng ta hạnh phúc.

Nếu có ai làm chúng ta khóc,

chúng ta phải tự yêu mình hơn một chút.

Nếu chúng ta không yêu chính mình,

thì chúng ta cũng không có quyền yêu ai nữa...

Đọc lại "Công Việc mà Tôi Yêu Thích"

2011-09-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

Nơi làm việc của mình - Chinese Heritage Centre - có đẹp không?

"Công Việc mà Tôi Yêu Thích" là một trong các bài tập lớp Việt 3 của mình năm trước. Tối nay bạn cùng phòng của mình không có ở nhà, đã về quê Malaysia. Mình cảm thấy hơi buồn chán và cô đơn, cho nên đăng nhập Cyworld và đọc lại các bài mình đã viết. Ôi, trời ơi! Trình độ tiếng Việt bây giờ thật là kém hơn thời trước lắm! Mình nhớ thời trước hầu như mỗi đêm mình cũng chăm học tiếng Việt, lúc nào cũng làm xong bài tập tiếng Việt trước các môn học khác. Mình có thể dành cả ngày để làm chỉ làm bài tập tiếng Việt thôi.

Cuối cùng mình đã tốt nghiệp rồi, bây giờ đọc lại bài đó cảm thấy buồn cười. Mình tự hỏi đã tìm được công việc mà mình yêu thích chưa? Công việc hiện thời của mình giống như những gì trong bài đó không?

...các bạn của tôi đã bắt đầu kiếm việc, nhưng tôi chưa biết tôi muốn làm nghề gì.

Mình còn chưa biết mình thích nghề hiện nay của mình hay không, ít nhất mình không ghét.

Ngày xưa tôi ước làm giáo viên, nhưng mà hiện nay tôi không còn thấy như vậy nữa. Chắc là làm giáo viên ở Singapo rất căng thẳng, vì phần lớn học sinh quá chú trọng về điểm.

Bây giờ mình vẫn còn nghĩ như vậy, nhưng mình thật sự coi trọng những người giáo viên ở Singapo. Một số bạn đang làm giáo viên, thật là không dễ.

Tôi hy vọng kiếm được một công việc ổn định, chẳng hạn như làm nhân viên ở công ty, làm việc với chính phủ.

Làm trợ lý cá nhân (thư ký riêng) trong Đài học, nếu không làm lỗi gì lớn thì có thể nói là ổn định.

... quan trọng nhất là tôi không thích quá bận rộn. Ngoài công việc, tôi thấy việc nghỉ ngơi và những hoạt động giải trí cũng rất quan trọng. Đặc biệt là với phụ nữ, tôi thấy những người phụ nữ cần thêm thời gian để chăm sóc gia đình.

Một tuần làm việc nam ngày, từ 9 giờ sáng đến 6 giờ chiều. Cuối tuần có thể nghỉ ngơi, nấu ăn, ngủ ở nhà, đi vui chơi, đi làm công việc tình nguyện, đi tìm bạn, đi mua sắm... Khi làm việc mà thỉnh thoảng bận thỉnh thoảng rảnh. Khi rảnh thì có lễ phải làm OT (nhưng không có tiền lương bổ sung). Chăm sóc gia đình? Haha, mình cần một người bạn trai trước!

Với tôi, lương chỉ cần đủ sống và đủ trả nợ học phí, áp lực thì phải vừa phải...

Tiền lương hiện nay đủ sống, nhưng nếu tiền lương không tăng sau một năm thì mình cần 5 năm để trả hết nợ học phí, trời ơi!

Với tôi, quan hệ với đồng nghiệp là điều quan trọng nhất, bởi vì điều này có thể ảnh hưởng đến tâm trạng (mood) và hiệu quả làm việc của tôi. Làm việc với đồng nghiệp ở công ty như một gia đình lớn. Nếu quan hệ tốt, tất cả mọi người không những ít cãi nhau, mà còn sẽ giúp đỡ nhau; Nếu quan hệ không tốt thì môi trường làm việc căng thẳng...

Chắc chắn là quan trọng nhất! Bởi vậy mình đã tạo quan hệ với các đồng nghiệp và sẽ cố gắng trong điều này. Mình không muốn nhìn thấy trong một công ty nhỏ "có nhiều nhóm" và thường tán gẫu về lẫn nhau.

...Vì vậy tôi chỉ hy vọng công việc của tôi có thể đem lại những niềm vui và giúp tôi phát huy tài năng của mình. Nếu kiếm được công việc như vậy thì chỗ làm việc không thành vấn đề.

Chỗ làm việc không xa. Công việc này có thể giúp mình phát huy tài năng hay không thì mình chưa biết. Nhưng mà mình biết mình phài step out of comfort zone của mình để tiến bộ! Cố gắng, Chi ơi!

Bàn/ phòng của mình

Động lực của mình

*Cám ơn thầy giáo Bằng giúp kiểm tra bài tập =D*

May Mắn

2011-09-23T21:48:00.000-07:00

Người ta thường nói là nếu hai người đàn ông cãi nhau, thường là vì hai lý do dưới: Thứ nhất, tiền bạc. Hai, phụ nữ. Mình cũng thấy là đúng. Sau đó mình lại nghĩ, nếu hai người phụ nữ cãi nhau, thường vì cái gì nữa? Mình thấy tiền bạc là chắc chắn, lý do gì nữa? Đàn ông? Bạn trai? Haha, có lẽ lý do nhiều không đếm hết!

Lý do gì cũng không sao, miễn là tình bạn và xúc cảm không bị tổn thương. Mình cảm thấy hai người có thể trở thành bạn thân thật là không dễ, được làm bạn thật là số phận (fate). Nếu trả một ít tiền thêm có thể duy trì tình bạn tốt, mình không phiền trả nhiều hơn.

Được cùng ở hòa bình trong một cái nhà với ba người đẹp gái, mình thấy may mắn lắm. Họ không những dễ tính, mà còn không ích kỷ và tính toán hơn thiệt (calculating). Thường nghe nói các bạn phàn nàn không thích bạn ở chung buồng/ nhà làm cái gì này làm cái gì đó, nhưng bạn cùng phòng của mình chẳng bao giờ phàn nàn như vậy.

Mình chắc chắn may mắn. :)

迷失 Đi lạc

2011-09-08T03:13:00.000-07:00

畢業后的工作生活

仿佛失去了方向

不知道自己想要什麽

也不怎麽想去擬定短期的人生目標

我揮霍着青春歲月

以纍計積儲為藉口

Mình có lẽ đã đi lạc

Trong cuộc sống ở nơi làm việc sau khi tốt nghiệp

Chưa biết ước gì

Còn không muốn kế hoạch tương lai

Mình đang phung phí tuổi thọ

Chỉ tặng bản thân mình lý do bào chữa...

Let's move on

2011-06-08T18:16:00.000-07:00

Feeling very bad right now. I am quite sure that I failed my MOE teaching position interview. I did not show passion, but hesitation. I screwed it up! Can I blame the weather?

The weather was so hot that woken me up at 2am. I couldn't help but to drink cold water. It was good to clear my bowels in the morning but the stomachache made me feel nervous and strengthless. I did not have a good sleep. I saw 2 SMSs in the midnight, asking favours from me. After replying, I tried to sleep. But when I was about to go into deep sleep, I heard something falling from my building down to the ground floor, the thing broke I could hear. It was scary and I felt not secure to sleep near the window. Since the weather was so intolerable, I slept on the floor.

Was quiet busy and feeling uneasy these weeks. Was asked for help by many friends, there were many "accidents". They range from big problem such as finding immediate temporary accommodation to minor assistance such as top-upping phone card and doing translation. I have tried to help what I can, cause I know this is what friends for. However I have chunks of problems to be settled too, Vietnam immersion, arrangement of hosting my family in July, job search, accommodation search, house shifting, dental appointment.... Uhhh! Feeling so overwhelmed. :(

Ohyea, can I blame my court shoes too? They hurt my skin and confidence. :( Time to get used to high heels.

Such a day. So warm at night, but it rained just after my interview. I had no choice but to take a cab back! Such a day that I will never forget. A lesson to learn from, life goes on. Perhaps I am not ready to teach in Singapore.

Let's move on. : )

P.S. Special thanks to Dr Serena, Si Min, Mdm Usa and my good friends for all the advice and encouragement! :)

再見不乏美麗的國大 @ NUS

2011-05-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

倘若讀書如砌塼……

大廈聳立之中仍見藍天明月

是新加坡的幸福

黃色天花板

是國大其中一種“指路牌”

國大的清潔工人也挺勤奮的

若不是周末假期

則無緣欣賞此美境

我喻其為“無沙的沙灘”

國大不妨轉其為沙灘

課堂小休來曬個太陽嘛！

倒看的美麗

習慣了讀書行走時低頭的專注

倘若天氣晴朗

不妨來個九十度擡頭

挑起嗅覺的走廊

常提醒我自然界的存在

亦讓我想起

好久沒煲糖水了！

建築冷冰冰的國大

需要陳舊來點綴

“同一片藍天

活在抉擇與取捨的邊緣”

您常讓人感覺您是個高壓電鍋

人人爭著做您鍋中的馬鈴薯

但願日後您能成爲微波爐

其實不須高壓也能給食物煮熟

好無聊的一個比喻 =P

Colours @ NUS

2011-04-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

紅花綠葉彩色世界何其美好
惟色盲和心忙者
不及欣賞
You may see colours,

but you may not see a colourful world.

Beauty is simple, simple is beauty @ NUS

2011-04-17T11:06:00.000-07:00

路人與落葉擦身而過

我竟被葉上露珠所反射的銀光閃過樂視線

沒多理會別人奇怪的眼光

我冒著小雨在小徑中央停下了腳步

哆卡兩秒後

滿心歡喜地走回閲讀室

攝影

讓我更珍惜身邊自然的美

記一個簡單的午後雨天。

最佳損友

2011-04-02T09:54:00.000-07:00

此學年生事頻繁，痛失朋友若干，卻獲真摯友誼無數。痛失，非其離人間而去，而指友情之決裂。雖有決裂之遺憾，卻感激朋友之坦白。於斯“人閒世”欲“患不知人”，實不易也。否則不會常執著於“人之不知己”。友人之坦白，意其所在乎也，實為友誼之難能可貴。本以爲能長存之友誼卻不得“盡其年”，自將友情斷送，不亦悔乎？

泛泛之交，今卻成深交。此深交數者，常使我感覺如“河伯”，見己之小也。然亦未曾覺自卑，而僅有鼓勵向上之效。感激春、佘、晏、萱、Abhi、Hiền、Mai、Ferdi、TN、Eunice等喜哀與共之友，感謝好友之包容、體諒、鼓勵、傾聽與關懷。不求友誼天長地久，但願真心相待。

該釋懷了，瑋纓。

朋友，我當然你一世朋友。

Apologies

2011-03-31T11:09:00.000-07:00

Is that an honour if you found yourself being the main character of one's blog's post? Well if it is talking about something good about you, it's a pleasure. But what if you it is something horrible about you, yet so true and of genuine feelings, yet so hurting? I never knew she writes blog, though knowing that she has been closely following others'. Not sure if she does follow mine, or shall I say I am worth the time for her to follow. If she does, I hope this post serves as an apology, regardless of whether she accepts it or not.

Have been doubting myself recently if I have been doing things wrongly throughout my university life. Obviously, the answer is yes. The answer is more confirmed after reading her blog. When I first visited her blog, I was actually mentally prepared that I told myself I would most probably appear in her blog, as she is such a frank person that would lash her feelings in a way she thinks hurt people the least. And there I was.

Yes I am such a moody person, those who know me know this. For those who know me well, they know my "moody" is just temporary and they would avoid me for that period of time. Yea I have this problem since primary school, and the problem popped up on and off until now. I have come across many "friend crisis" because of this, yet there would for sure be a true friend who pointed his/her finger to me and taught me a lesson. And I really appreciated that much, you know who you are. :) Unfortunately, we need to grow up, we need to discover things by our own something, we can't rely on others. There are many things that I need to learn on my own, a true friend would not always stand out and give gentle reminders.

Mentioning about C's birthday, yes I was indeed frustrated about her being unusually not responsive and not so serious about it (delaying checking the price of the present and not able to manage and confirm the time of the celebration session though the day was very near). Yea perhaps I really never put myself in her shoes thus created a lot of unnecessary assumptions. I was not sensitive enough to realize that it was Valentine's day and I asked a favour from her, cause all the while I thought she was single and might not want people to mention about Valentine's day. And it turned out that it was all my fault to be rude to force her to do all these. I wasn't unwilling to organize the whole celebration, but I just felt that I was left alone organizing the whole thing on my own in the end - photoshop-ing the birthday card, checking out the price of the gift, buying the gift, buying the 'cake', informing all the people involved, settling all the money matters. I did not really care about my thesis that time (and I admit my poor time management, and being not able to solve everything as efficient as her, and truly I have been really admiring her for her intelligence and efficiency), but I felt it's a chance to show our appreciation to the good friend, not all on my own and make people feel that I was forcing people to work, instead of sharing the workload together. And now I am very sorry as the birthday boy is feeling guilty about it. Yet, this has nothing to do with him, it's my own personality of being moody created all these shit. I feel deeply sorry to her for my mistakes made, as the sweet moments we had together during the vacation were stained with irrevocable memories. I am okay to lose her as a friend, but I really hope she can still contribute to our common goals - she knows it what.

I always feel like blaming why I was born with such a face - a mouth with a frowning shape when I don't smile. Friends around always think that when I don't smile, I seem to be angry. But in fact it is just that there are times I don't feel like putting up an expression because I really feel tired of exercising my muscles on the face. But then everyone 'accused' me for showing them a long face. Is that my fault? When I feel tired to smile or I was really unhappy on my own, am I still expected to show an obviously-unwilling smile to show respect? There were times that I was really unhappy, I jogged around the school on my own and then walked on the path back to hostel which people rarely walk. I wanted avoid contacting with people as I didn't want to show a fake smile. However there are times that I really can't run away, and here my scary "moody" face comes? I wonder how good it would be if I were born with a natural smiling mouth/ lips. No one will know that I am unhappy because people tends to judge me on the face. You might argue that when someone is unhappy, one can sense it, though you are putting on a smile, from one's word, one's tone, one's way of expression. And I really have to admit that I failed. I really fail in it. I was reprimanded by my advisor for not able to communicate in a polite way. I took it, I learnt a lesson. But still my problem is not eradicated. Until when I would learn....

Deeply hurt. But will tell myself to learn a lesson.

Sincere apologies to her, X.

And you know what, I just discovered a new way to 'fake' my not-smiling-face. :P When I don't feel like exercising my face muscles, I can always add a pair of tiring eyes - to show that I am tired and I can't smile for now. And it works! :)

夫道未始有封，言未始有常，為是而有畛也。

是非錯對，隨它去吧。

記一道傷痕。

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

不吐不快

2011-03-29T03:04:00.000-07:00

歌手：張敬軒
作曲：Christopher Chak
填詞：林夕編曲：陳珀

為何共那又來又往沒情沒趣無情份的竟比你都更頻繁暢聚

為何遇到別人問好為何和你沒有需要花心機講好說話一句

為何若有無聊事幹便寧願上載到電腦早已忘掉怎跟你吹水

為何難得尚能騰空坐在戲院主角自殺你共我竟過倦而進睡

過去共你 (怎麼去比)　哪理會你 (趕得要死)

也愛用整晚說杜琪峰專長揭露命途無常的道理

講破天地　講到自己

不覺迎面太陽已經昇起

只怕無法再有這種情懷

優美得共你同時在這世界

醜惡在於　赤子的胸懷

難敵這紛擾世態　為理想或求生在捱 (該理解)

沒完沒了各有需要把青春賤賣 (怎逛街)

漸行漸遠每天很快淡出得更快 (這宇宙太大)

握手將要安排　原諒我悲觀過界

但血啃在喉中　不吐不快

為何為了別煩著你別防礙你悠然睡去不忍太早太夜回你電

為何大家為求夢想為求上進沒有空檔分擔怎麼跟壓力挑戰

為何為了未來易過便勤力到忘掉共你兜半晚風不需太多錢

為何大家漸明大體再沒有膽不理夜半有沒有緊要事仍見面

過去共你 (怎麼去比)　哪理會你 (趕得要死)

也愛用整晚暢論人家感情最後為何完結的道理

講破天地　講到自己

不覺殘酷太陽已經昇起

只怕無法再有這種情懷

優美得共你同時在這世界

醜惡在於　赤子的胸懷

難敵這紛擾世態　為理想或求生在捱 (該理解)

沒完沒了各有需要把青春賤賣 (怎逛街)

漸行漸遠每天很快淡出得更快 (這宇宙太大)

握手將要安排　原諒我悲觀過界

但血啃在喉中　不吐不快

如何勤勞　便有甚麼出路

令你與我少了幾里漫步

沒能力坐到老　出世需要進步

你我再好也難逃這個軌道

該理解　沒完沒了各有需要把青春賤賣 (怎逛街)

漸行漸遠每天很快淡出得更快 (這宇宙太大)

握手將要安排　原諒我悲觀過界

但血啃在喉中　不吐不快

任何密友任何伴侶和諧互鬥投緣互信尊敬退縮生疏掛心忽近又遠跟世態搖擺

見慣不會怪

Earth Hour - I am online

2011-03-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

Happy Earth Hour!

But I am still online here in school, with lights and laptop on. Well, the aircon is off automatically after 7pm, but the fresh air outside flowing in from the windows is enough to make the stuffy Honours Room cooler. : )

Hmm. Saw a few friends commenting on the Earth Hour event. One of them said it's silly enough. Well, he does have a point. For me, I would think, individually, if one practises good habit of switching off light/fan/electrical appliances-not-in-use everyday, there isn't a need to purposely switch off everything on a particular hour. To a certain extent, it seems that after that hour, everything is back to normal.

The aircons in residents' room and kitchen lights/fan in PGP are still 24-hour on,

The aircons/lights in empty study rooms are still left switched on,

The PGP Office still leaves the computers near the front door switched on overnights,

The students still sleep with their laptop 24-hour on, etc, etc...

Doubtless to say there is a bunch of people who think like this:

I have paid my hostel fees, why do I need to conserve electricity? No matter how much electricity I used, it doesn't affect me, so I shall use it to the maximum. I don't pay extra.

Surprisingly (or not surprising at all), many who have an aircon in their type B or C rooms do not register their usage with the PGP Office. And it was found that since they ran away from paying extra, they switched the aircon 24-hour on even when they were out. See, that's one of the reasons that our hostel fees keep increasing. Many who abide by the house rules are paying/ covering for the those who don't.

Though the RAs have reported during every room verification, we can still see residents comfortably using their unregistered aircon/ small refrigerator at the end of the semester.

我的家乡 My Hometown

2011-03-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

熟悉的街道建築物

熟悉的怡保廣東話

熟悉的老黃芽菜雞

“老黃刀法” 讓我想起《莊子》的庖丁解牛……

想家……

Coming Across 2: The Winner Takes It All

2011-03-20T20:18:00.000-07:00

I don’t wanna talk
About the things we’ve gone through
Though it’s hurting me
Now it’s history
I’ve played all my cards
And that’s what you’ve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That’s her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I’d be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It’s simple and it’s plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don’t wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You’ve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

by Bùi (Vũ) Thanh, Top 8 Australian Idol 2008

Coming Across 1: Malaysia Manglish Song

2011-03-20T19:49:00.000-07:00

Sweet melody. Crystal clear voice.
The lyrics aren't bad too! : )

日本、臺灣、中國

2011-03-18T04:52:00.000-07:00

轉載自BBC中文網

http://www.bbc.co.uk/zhongwen/simp/china/2011/03/110317_twletter_japan_quake_wuyanling.shtml

台湾来鸿：日本震灾给我们上的一课

吴燕玲

台湾自由撰稿人

当每个灾民都无家可归没有食物的时候，他们依然安静地排着队领取购买自己所需的一小包物资，没有疯狂抢购囤积物品。

台湾这几天所有的报纸版面与电视新闻，全都强力放送日本大地震之后的各种消息，同样位于地震带，台湾对于地震灾害有着相同的心理恐惧，于是大家一边紧盯着新闻动态，脑袋里不断在问一个问题：「如果相同的情况发生在台湾，我们会有怎样的表现？」

台湾这块土地与日本有着复杂历史情感，有人极喜欢日本，有人极讨厌日本，但是看到日本面对如此巨大的天灾，一篇最近在网络上被网友转载无数次的文章，里面有着这样的一句话：「如果天灾不可避免，宁愿在发生灾难时，我的人是在日本！」这句话，道尽了许多台湾人对日本民众，在面对天灾时所表现出来的冷静、秩序与文明的高度肯定。

防灾教育扎根落实

即使是原来不喜欢日本的台湾人，看到日本民众的表现，扪心自问也自叹弗如。因为台湾民众无法想象，当每个灾民都无家可归没有食物的时候，他们依然安静地排着队领取购买自己所需的一小包物资，没有疯狂抢购囤积物品；当东京交通中断无法回家时，滞留街头的民众发挥社群力量，安静地暂居各个公共场所，而这样的冷静与自制，靠的是平时从小就扎根的防灾教育。

救灾体系便民建全

当然，台湾各界也无法想象，日本可以在地震发生的第一时间，以手机简讯的方式通知民众，便利商店可以免费提供民众物资、公共电话可以免费让民众拨打电话报平安、银行可以不要存折让民众领钱，这种以便民为前提的救灾机制，也超出台湾救灾机制的经验范围，不但讶异于日本政府如何能做到，也开始检讨在台湾的救灾体系中，该如何建立起这些机制，行政院就要求电信业者未来在灾变中应配合政府指令发送示警简讯给民众。

媒体传播救灾信息

除了救灾体系的完整便民、防灾教育的落实扎根之外，看到日本ＮＨＫ在面对灾变时，没有使用煽情的字眼，没有渲染受难家属伤痛，还先抛开媒体监督批判的角色，把自己变成救灾动员的传播管道，提供各种详细的信息给民众，甚至扮演民众报平安的讯息交换平台，看到这种现象的台湾媒体圈，也发出自我反省的呼声，虽然这段期间台湾媒体还是出现了一些过于煽情的报导，但整体而言，台湾媒体在这次面对日本天灾的报导，已经比以往面对灾难时，克制了许多。

给予危机处理的时间

当然，日本民众的冷静顺从，不代表没有抱怨；日本救灾机制即使算是全世界数一数二，也不代表没有改进的空间；日本媒体的高度自律，更不代表不能对于政府的决策到执行有所质疑，特别是在福岛核电厂接二连三地发生氢爆之后，全球对于日本政府处理核灾的能力，信心开始动摇。

只是这些质疑或检讨，台湾舆论一向习惯在第一时间就提出，企图影响政府官员的危机处理决策，但在这次日本震灾中，台湾却看到了日本社会是如何冷静理性地给予日本政府一段处理危机的时间，没有急于批评，毕竟救灾是与时间在竞赛，这恐怕是日本民众在此次灾变中，教导台湾甚或是全世界，最重要而宝贵的一课。

再看看日本的“鄰國”……

http://newsforums.bbc.co.uk/ws/zh/thread.jspa?forumID=13693

如何看中国出现抢购食盐风潮？

日本福岛核电站产生辐射危险以来，中国大陆一些省市和香港出现市民抢购食盐风潮。

据报，市民是听信了食盐可以抗辐射的传言，并担心今后海盐受核辐射污染因此想多买一些做好准备。

中国内地的广东、浙江、江苏、安徽、湖南多个省份出现抢购碘盐现象，中国政府表示严打哄抬食盐价格的行为。

中国官方媒体引述业内人士的话称，中国食盐大部分是矿盐，矿盐资源充裕，供应不成问题。即使是海盐，也远离日本，被污染的可能性很小。

如何看中国大陆和香港出现抢购食盐风潮？你是否目睹这个现象？造成公众恐慌心理的主要原因是什么？如何防止公众产生恐慌？请您发表意见。

朋友說，不管哪個國家，每個人都怕死。
只是有人會利用這個“契機”變商機，利用口頭宣傳謠言的力量，
利用人民的“無知”，為自己纍計財富。
“機不可失”嘛！

Touched ♥

2011-03-18T00:12:00.000-07:00

Touched. Very touched to see how the Japanese reacted to the post-disaster circumstances. Homeless. Loss of love ones. Lack of food, water and heat. Yet everything and everyone seems to be in order. The people seem calm, though saddened. The people are moving/looking forward to solutions and recovery, rather than blaming what was done wrongly in the past. The people help each other, though among the volunteers most of them are victims as well. The people want to save the country, not because of wanting to be heroes. The people are very conscious of what they are doing. And the people strongly believes that they can overcome this by accepting what happened, helping each other, staying calm and united.

I wonder how the Singaporean would react if disasters happen here. Would they displayed their 'kiasu'ness? Would I? Would I run back to my country and leave Singapore with my eyes closed? Would I join the volunteer team?

What if disasters happen in Malaysia, and at my hometown? Would I go back and help my nation? My mom would for sure ask me to stay safely in Singapore, would I listen to her? What can I help with my little ability?

"Japan is still a nation who deserves much respect," said my friend.

NUS Open Day: My Last Duty for PGP

2011-03-12T04:03:00.000-08:00

Did not feel sad at all though it would be the last time I, as a Resident Assistant, brought visitors and showed them around PGP, my second home which I have been staying for 4 years. From an introvert girl who dared not to visitors 3 years ago to an experienced RA who can speak confidently and spontaneously now, I would not hesitate to share to the advantages and disadvantages staying in PGP if my visitors ask. The part-time working experience in PGP Management Office has greatly helped me understand PGP better, both the software management (by RA) and hardware management (by MO). And from there I learnt how to work and cooperate with MO even better. Networking and sincere working relationships too are essential to make RA work goes even smoother and more efficient.

Was only able to guide 2 tours today without 2-hour duty. It was really pleasing and fun to meet the potential students and their parents. A middle-age Chinese man who helped his friend's daughter to survey around, a local girl and her kind father. The Chinese man asked me which dynasty I am fond of, knowing that my major is Chinese Studies. But I forgot to tell him that my area of interest is actually Overseas Chinese. : ) The Singaporean father was really smart to figure out that I am a Malaysian.

Was also greeted with many kind smiles when I showed the way out to the visitors who were confused with the route. Among them there were two Chinese ladies who were looking for Sichuan dishes in PGPR. They were surprised that I can speak Mandarin well when I told them I am from Malaysia. Ohyea, they even asked about my ancestors! LOL, hehe, they were just asking if my ancestors are from China... Sometimes I wonder, the current Chinese in China really have little knowledge about the overseas Chinese? Haven't they heard about the Chinese Diaspora? ^_^

Had a great time chatting with Alison too. : ) Was digging out a lot of sweet memories of perfect teamwork and great time together with my senior ex-RAs and told Alison. I know that the great golden time would never come back, but I always look forward to the best from the new team. Kudos to the organizing committee of PGP Open House 2011! You guys already did a great job! : )

以命名觀其志

2011-03-11T02:15:00.000-08:00

http://www.foonyew.edu.my/

http://www.payfong.edu.my/

還有循人、尊孔……

戀上夏韶聲之聲

2011-03-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

邇來覺得夏韶聲甚有魅力。

素來認識的夏韶聲也只不過是香港連續劇的小配角、K咧啡而已。今方才發現其一段輝煌歲月，其搖滾音樂生涯。最爲感動的是那滄桑的嗓子，配上刻骨的歌詞……

《你喚醒我的靈魂》詞：林振強

我從前根本懶想，從無關心故鄉，惟求偷生與安詳，

你明知可重傷仍胸襟對槍，寧死都要堅強，只為民主飄揚，

靈魂終於都甦醒，激動動脈奔騰跟你衝，

遙遙祝福請小心保重，現在心靈跟你通，你極勇。

我從前一堆冷感，從來不肯費心，從來不管有他人，

你憑空空兩手和一顆心，承擔千處傷痕，只為民主精神，

靈魂終於都甦醒，激動動脈奔騰跟你衝，

遙遙祝福請小心保重，現在心靈跟你通，有萬象。

只為要民主飄揚，靈魂終於都甦醒，

激動動脈奔騰跟你衝，遙遙祝福請小心保重，

現在心靈跟通靈魂，祝福請小心保重，

共付出無比的勇。

演唱：夏韶聲作詞：劉卓輝　作曲：林慕德

不要誰來訂制對不對，不要誰在亂判我的罪
不想太陽再升起再升起再次軟禁真理
不要無奈地悄悄低訴，不要麻木地慨嘆風暴
不可放下那傷悲那傷悲再次冷卻不理

媽媽，讓我聽聽你的心裏話，多少噩夢你不想你不敢去怒罵
媽媽，若我遠去你將我忘記吧，風吹雨下我不想我不想再懦弱
媽媽我沒有過錯，媽媽我沒有過錯，一起繼續我與你不死的勇氣
媽媽我沒有過錯，媽媽我沒有過錯，一起繼續我與你不死的勇氣

媽媽，讓我聽聽你的心裏話，多少噩夢你不想你不敢去怒罵
媽媽，若我遠去你將我忘記吧，風吹雨下我不想我不想再懦弱
人群沉重的足印，走上永遠的鬥爭，人民狂怒的呼吸，埋葬鎮壓的聲音

媽媽，我沒有過錯，媽媽我沒有過錯，一起繼續我與你不死的勇氣
媽媽我沒有過錯，媽媽我沒有過錯，一起繼續我與你不死的勇氣
媽媽我沒有過錯，媽媽我沒有過錯，一起繼續我與你不死的勇氣

風裏仍彌漫冷冷空氣，春雨仍流淚遍佈土地
當我盼望有一天有一天世界永遠優美

Failed

2011-02-20T06:46:00.000-08:00

Was a little disappointed to be rejected to join VietnamJUMP 2011. Trying to figure out what have possibly made me fail my application or interview:

RA commitment during May.
Being busy for thesis during their preparation period, thus not able to promise good commitment.
Reject to be the Welfare Head if they give me a chance to join the program.
Being not physically supportive to Zirca Dance Fest (one of the fund-raising activities) [Thanks to the meaningless KF]

Perhaps I should utilize the few months after graduation to earn some livings.

Perhaps I should try contract teaching.

Perhaps I should just stay responsibly in PGP without burdening anyone else.

Find a new accommodation.

Continue the meaning of life.

And I shall come back again, Vietnam,

with my own money...

Things who did not kill me makes me stronger.

emo的一晚

2011-02-15T09:24:00.000-08:00

這學期是做RA以來最辛苦最大壓力的一個學期。壓力大是因爲不僅僅要寫論文，辛苦是因爲沒有人會看到你在背後付出多少而主動跟你分擔。其實付出再多我也不介意，但就是不喜歡自己一個人“在背後默默付出”，既然做的是好事就應該大家同甘共苦。我不想做背後默默付出的“偉大的人”，我只希望大家齊心合力朝同一個方向走，放下自私的心，為自己爭取少一些，為別人付出多一些，不可以嗎？

短訊來了。是救星。唉！船快沉了，遠處的小帆船向我伸出援手，可是同船人卻不曾着急過……

記金錢難買的好時光

2011-02-12T21:12:00.000-08:00

再豐盛的大魚大肉，也不勝與好友共享一粒甜柚子！

信念

2011-02-12T01:04:00.000-08:00

若相信自己的信念是对的，坚持下去。就算此刻别人看不见，明年别人还是看不见，这辈子没人看见，后世代被蒙蔽……

真的很討厭這種感覺

2011-02-08T04:02:00.000-08:00

真的很討厭這種感覺。好想家的感覺，與家人各奔東西南北的感覺，被課業壓得透不過氣的感覺，在宿舍孤孤單單的感覺，走進食堂餓得要命卻沒什麽好吃的感覺。真的很討厭這種感覺。

讀書心跳加速

2011-01-25T21:52:00.000-08:00

終于狠心將Facebook束之高閣。深知自己不夠自律，才會走到這麽一個田地。希望接下來的日子，真的要好好讀書和寫論文。Facebook打烊了，才發現它是自己抒發己見的好地方。往往是若有己見，好的坏的，喜的怒的，都盡顯其中。於我，“面子書”譯得可真貼切，我的喜怒哀樂似乎就盡顯在其“面”上。其實這樣一種“無拘無束”的發言方式，是很危險的，常常惹來很多不必要的誤會。至今方才體會，這本“書”，還是不要上癮為妙！否則，非但難以抽身，且招惹是非。

最近讀書常有一種感覺。由於古文基礎打不好，讀書頻覺吃力。也因爲如此，一旦花了很多工夫和實踐去理清脈絡，稍有頭緒之際，頓覺心跳加速！好像好刺激呀！可能是由於老師鼓勵同學在forum發言的關係，班上同學如此踴躍，一股無形的壓力湧心頭而上，鼓勵自己“讀書！讀書啊！”。

人人期望有一天，这个世界充满爱

2011-01-12T01:02:00.000-08:00

我这该死的家伙！毕业在即，同学都在为论文而呕心沥血，废寝忘食，朝暮不辍地为论文奋力；我却还未为论文而紧张，恃着这学期只有两门课觉得课程表太空太单调，结果从假期开始便接过了很多工作。这些工作，可谓是为了别人，其实应该是为了自己……

假期里朋友因为一些家庭不幸和学业压力而情绪低落，我竭尽所能尽量帮助她、陪她、关心她、给她一些精神的支持。这样一种关爱是费时的，但我觉得没什么比好朋友有难需要帮助来得重要。如今她的情况总算稳定了下来，我也释怀。:)

此外也答应替越南语老师做一些宣传，好让逐年下滑的学生人数情况有所改善。毋庸置疑，越南语的市场价值真的不比其它语言来得高，可是学习外语这东西，学得的不应该只是语言，而包括文化、历史和去了解说这语言的人。就凭我坚信的原则，花了很多功夫去整理http://www.lavatnus.blogspot.com/，因为不甘心这么好的一位越语老师就这样放弃在国大教学。俗语说，取之社会用之社会，如今学得稍有成就就尽量贡献一份绵力。心血，应该没有白费的。:)

上学期就一直在听农夫的歌〈儿童问题〉，被歌曲中孩童唱的“人人期望有一天，这个世界充满爱”深深感动。这个“世界充满爱”对我影响很深。中学时其实就很想去当义工，却不知道从哪儿开始。其实是没有勇气。如果付出爱心也要看时机的话，那我应该在我死的那一天也不会有这股勇气。就在告诉自己“做人果断点、不要马马虎虎”的那一刻，我登记成为Institute of Mental Health (IMH)的义工。很多人会不解我为什么选择这么一间“精神病院”，实际上是因为登记程序都挂在网上了，像我这样无从开始的人终于找到了最简捷的方式开始我的义工旅程。首次经验实在让我获益良多，期待着来临的星期六！:)

假期发生的小事大事也可真多的。同事生水痘被关进了疗养房两星期，孤独得很，我不忍心便自荐替他送饭，偶尔还会打包过去跟他一起吃，跟他聊聊解闷。这种工作也是很费时的。我就这样每天为他打包印度饭，搞得几乎那印度饭摊的小子也以为我很爱吃印度饭了，每餐都见到我可真搞笑呢。后来他痊愈了，学期也开始了，他非常感激我，还送了我许多小礼物。以为就此结束我这一份“换来真挚友谊”的短期义工，怎知他一出来，我楼的另一位resident又患了水痘搬了进去，偶尔我得送饭去，我跟那recovery room实在有缘。:)

今早到MPSH捐血，已经是第五次了，但这是第一次感觉特别有意义。我看着身边这些年龄相当的男男女女，他们都是有爱心、恻隐之心的人，跟在IMH的义工们一样，都是年轻的活力男女。想到这儿我顿时觉得“世界充满爱”绝不是天方夜谭，我从心里笑了出来。捐血附送的记事本里有这么写道：When I was a month old, I had a blood transfusion that saved my life. That motivated me to become a donor myself and to organize blood drives with my wife. -Selvarajoo Kumarappan & Sewa Rani。原来以前一直以“钱途”为先的我，今天觉得，真正能满足心灵的，是爱心；钱呢，好像找得越多越贪，但找来捐给慈善却是另一回事了。:)

最近朋友有事相求，若我能做到的我都尽量不推辞。我唯一推辞逃避的应该是自己的论文而已。整天呆在图书馆真的好闷，我很希望我的最后学期可以在比较活泼的气氛下度过。可是别无选择，“业”是一定要“毕”的，但我知道该“毕”的是什么，不该“毕”的又是什么。最近一直回想起过往自私自利的自己，更觉得最近活得开心多了。除了“中文系”这一条路，其实我应该给自己多些发挥的空间。:)

“这个世界充满爱”不是一种期望！就算是期望，我们也应该用努力，去把它变成现实。

时间快转！

2010-10-15T04:52:00.000-07:00

不想看到朋友伤心的样子的时候
我希望世界上有一种东西能让一个人看了吃了听和或者喝了怎么都好
不再悲伤
安慰的话要怎么讲
精神上的支持要怎么表达

原来
只有时间可以做到

那我希望时间快点过

沉重的回程

2010-09-20T01:50:00.000-07:00

等待回家的下午
百感交集
第一次感覺回家如此沉重
功課作業未完成
行李又怕收拾不好漏掉了什麽
怕回到家沒網際網絡做不了功課
怕在這麽短的幾天裏完成不了任務
姐姐又說她可能工作太多太累回不來了

憂心失望
希望回到家就不會想太多
好好過中秋就是了
回來再算吧！

越南奶奶

2010-07-14T22:55:00.000-07:00

前天做RA Ambassador
有個可愛的越南小伙子check-in
相伴的還有他的爸爸和奶奶
奶奶看似已年上七十
哇還老遠陪孫子來到這裡

我禮貌地說了聲 xin chao!
奶奶不禁露出喜悅之情
還熱情地握起我的雙手
笑著對我點點頭

記得那天我抵達越南機場
Dung的母親也是這樣握起我的雙手
她沒說什麽
但手心的溫度和手腕的力度已經告訴我
“別怕，有我在！”
身處在陌生的國度
那是多麽安慰的一句話呀

不知如何形容如今這位奶奶
像似直接又似含蓄的表達
只能感受
不能言喻

謙虛

2010-06-18T00:32:00.000-07:00

本性難移
最近又來那副死樣子
説話到處得罪人
嚴重破壞自己的形象后
卻又千方百計嘗試補救

唉都怪自己意氣用事
反省后後悔莫及
也傷害了一些人
知道就算反省后改變態度
也沒人再敢接近我了

從小就沒有把“謙虛”兩字放在心上
看吧才有今天的我

我覺得此非巧合
我相信是上天給我提示
第一次打開Facebook的Inspiration Quote竟是

Striving for excellence motivates you;
Striving for perfection is demoralizing.

一語中的。

谁家的孩子？

2010-05-13T09:56:00.000-07:00

今天的独中已不是往日的独中

培养出来的人才

也未必对华文教育情有独钟

有人说

因为要面对现实

当中文与中国历史文化渐渐划清界线

当汉语和汉学各划圈圈

当教育（如果）只是为了未来的饭碗

我又何必如此执著

反正哪里待遇好就到哪儿去

因为这是现实

学长说

一个医生若是因为要赚钱而医人

那是医不好的

当老师也是一样

在考虑待遇之前

我想还有更重要的因素得考虑

每次听独中生朋友谈华文教育问题

听后都倍感心痛

那份执著让自己过不去

祖国不要我们

祖宗国不认我们

邻国要我们却又为难我们

我们

到底是谁家的孩子？

有感

2010-05-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

马来西亚

是个我们很想去爱

但不知道怎么去爱

或找什么原因去爱的国家

记一次闻名不如见面

Gown Project

2010-04-23T06:18:00.001-07:00

Beyond any expectation, I received a call from Eileen just now. Ohyea, it's time to recruit part-timers for NUS Gown Project again. But this semester I have no choice but to reject, because of my two overseas trips during vacation.

It suddenly reminds me of the old days with the Gown Project Team. The wage is comparatively low, but I felt like in a family. The period was tiring, but sweet! I had supportive managers, inspiring and motivating supervisors and of course funny colleagues! :)

I guess I was a workaholic? Yes if I am really into it. I guess I was hardworking enough, on the day of receiving my wages, I found that they increased my wage rate from $5.5 to $5.80. I felt like as if had struck a lottery, for an extra few hundred bucks. :D

I remembered one of the colleague told me, "Why are you working so hard? Our work is as much (fixed amount of workload). If you work so fast, we would finish the job earlier than expected. And you would get few days less of wages later!"

Erm, I was astonished. But it is so true. I never realize that one's diligence would implicate his team into disadvantages. Hmm...

对死物有情

2010-04-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

两年前
便一直吵要抛弃他另寻新欢了
至今他依旧伴随在我身边
比男友还粘缠

我谈过一段三年的恋爱
失败告终
而我和大银的感情
也不知不觉将近三年了
三年前自被爱人背叛的那天起
大银就跟着我到此时此刻

他虽好几次病倒
我只好开format良药
每次在一天内病愈
注：他不曾病重到入院，我三年不施汤药费！

他的生命力总算顽强呀！
亏我还常常嫌弃他慢如乌龟
嫌他笨重如化石
无情呀无情的我

若三年的大学生活没有他
不堪设想
可我仍在找着新欢
似乎抛弃他的一天一定会到来
只是迟早的问题

因为电脑呀电脑
一出生就注定是这样的质料
不像人一样
可以通过教育和思考
使自己成长、成熟、进步
人不想被别人抛弃被社会淘汰
自己就要设法努力
可怜的电脑
他别无选择

可我仍衷心感谢他
这三年对我不离不弃
不管是我摔他一跤
还是搞到他内脏器官脱落
还有不小心让他日晒雨淋
他没有半句怨言
旧款的Lenovo其实也很耐用滴 :)

人对死物有情
为何对自己无情
非要走到自杀的地步？

无解。

To Err

2010-04-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

Does it really take so much courage
to admit a trivial mistake made?
Why are people still defending themselves
though they knew it's just a mistake.

We call that 死撑 in Cantonese.
Is it called kiasu in Singlish?

To err is human.
Just a simple
"Yea, I'm sorry. I made a mistake."
To forgive is Divine.
People will forgive!

But why posting
unfavored words and name-calling
to hurt others
and spoil self-image?

FB is giving people freedom
to voice whatever in ourselves
but we should have a limit internally
at least
THINK
before you say something.

信任

2010-04-19T21:16:00.000-07:00

有时不是说我不信任别人
而把全部东西自己扛下来做
只是当我信任别人时
对方却处理得不够细心

当发现错误时
已成定局
在我的生命里留下缺憾

唯有安慰自己说
这是缺陷美吧！

PGP Study Room vs Campus Library

2010-04-18T22:47:00.000-07:00

Yes she is correct. PGP study rooms often smells fungus because of under-maintanence. But I would still prefer studying in PGP fungus-smell-like study rooms than Central Library.

Reason? I would rather be infected by fungus than by germs passing around by human. Some students never really take good care of their personal hygiene while spending nights in the library. Some students fall sick but still insist to stay working hard in the library. Yuck!

I just wonder why so many are attracted to that germs-filled place.

钢管舞

2010-04-10T03:53:00.001-07:00

今天在facebook转载了个视频
曰“标准基础钢管舞演示”
结果惹来朋友讥嘲一番
因为我对该视频的评语竟是
“Cool! It's an art!”

最初看到朋友讥讽的词语时
我还真怀疑自己是不是霎时神经错乱

未看片断只看到“钢管舞”一词时
我想大部分人也跟我的想法一样
预料片断里多多少少有“色”的成分
结果看完后却相当欣赏钢管女郎的高难度动作
从她的衣着、姿态看
一点也不觉得她像在色情场所工作的女郎
我只觉得若她参加韵律表演
也会跳得很美 :)

后来经朋友一番“提点”
在怀疑自己之际我尝试寻找钢管舞的渊源与发展
意外发现
钢管舞除了与“色”有直接联系外
我看到了它健康的一面

钢管舞最初是美国美利坚民族的一种民主舞蹈
是建筑工人在繁重工作之外的一种娱乐
男性建筑工人一边拿着钢管一边跳舞
（我还真想一睹为快呢！）

直到20世纪20年代美国经济泡沫的破灭
钢管舞沦落到色情场所
（接下来的发展大家有兴趣可以自己谷哥一下）

如今
这种舞蹈不仅是一些国家的文化表演
也是时尚的减肥健康运动
（这真是孤陋寡闻的我万万没想过的）

我这么说
不是要为钢管舞说一些什么好话
只是当社会将钢管舞跟“色”字画上等号时
谁也没法阻挡这种趋势

我只是想坚持
我看这片断的感觉是没错的
我真觉得那是种表演艺术

我记得老师说过
发明原子炸弹的人
最初绝对不是为了要炸毁别人而发明炸弹
只是后来被一部分人滥用而致
成为争权夺地的武器而已

若你真要到色情场所去认识这种表演艺术
那我也拿你没办法 :)

最后的合照

2010-03-29T04:23:00.000-07:00

本来美丽的早晨

我鼻子无故地流涕起来

没管太多专心上课

踏出课室看着手机的短讯

我没有刹那的激动

却突然明白流涕的原因

那是不可思议的

我的早晨下起雨来

最后的合照

藏在我的hard disk里哭泣

我不敢打开

直到您下葬了为止

我没后悔背着母亲的意愿

放下一切功课和工作

彻夜在高速公路上奔驰赶返

进门第一眼是您长眠的床

我不敢先去看您是我的不敬

怕自己像hard disk里的合照一样

谢谢您走后还报梦给我

您的微笑告诉我您在那里活得很好

母亲说那是因为您疼我

您应该和您的二儿子相遇了

因为昨天我也梦见了他

我答应您们

只要我人在家乡

我都会好好地照顾婆婆

您们要保佑她健健康康

无血缘关系的婆婆

2010-03-24T04:56:00.000-07:00

以前我常常在早晨陪你走路去买菜
菜摊的阿叔阿嫂问你
你身边这位女孩是不是你的孙女时
你都答道
“不是啦！我chaou(粤语音“凑”) geh。”
别人就会知道你是我的奶妈
然后我就在旁边很自豪地笑笑
有时你还会加一句
“如果我geh孙有甘大就好咯！”

事隔多年
直到阿伯去世几天后的那个早晨
我们在药材店
阿叔问你同样的问题
这次
你竟然第一次给了不同答案

我有点惊讶
不知道你是伤心过度不想花时间回答阿叔
还是
那就是你心中一直想要说的

是也好否也好
其实你一直都是我心中最好的婆婆
从小我没有祖母的溺爱
因为我的堂表兄弟姐妹也实在太多了

而你
跟我无任何血缘关系
却是看着我长大
从我小时细心呵护我长大的婆婆
直到现在
我依然能感觉到你很“锡”我

婆婆
我好想你
你一定要等我再回来看你
我会尽量安排每几个月就回去见你一次
你要等我

老师的话

2010-03-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

培恩氏说：“教师老了。不会教书，留在教室里有什么用？”
我说：“我们华人尊师重道，如果一位教师把一生的精力都贡献给教育，我们就宁愿让他死在教室里，不忍心把他赶出学校，看他死在路边的。”

《回忆片片录》林连玉

突然想起劳老师的话。

現實·浪漫

2010-03-18T17:52:00.000-07:00

明知社會是現實的

我仍堅持做一些不現實的決定

若人人都以現實作爲第一考量

這個世界會少了很多浪漫……

假的，騙人的

2010-03-02T04:06:00.000-08:00

阿牛說
總覺得能夠哭的朋友都很幸福
能夠把滿腔的無奈
滿腔的痛苦
讓淚水帶走

我已經哭了好幾遍了
無奈
痛苦
還是滿腔地在心頭

我應該回去出席葬禮嗎……

记一次家的味道

2010-01-30T20:28:00.001-08:00

可谓第一次安静地坐在房间看书
将堆积如山的功课暂时抛诸脑后

掀开窗帘
让中午的阳光射进乱糟糟的房间

窗外的建筑工地通常在星期日休息
但偶尔还会有阵机械不肯休息的声音传来
那堆积的砖块、洋灰、泥土
被风一拂飘到我的鼻前
那一阵泥土尘埃的味道
竟然挑起了思乡的怀念

第一次感觉自己仿佛处身在怡保的家
也只能是周日的家

蓝白的天云徐徐浮动
远处深绿色的树随周日的风悠哉地摇曳
虽不象在家般能听见树叶随风摩擦产生的嘻唰声
但心中可不停在嘻唰着

我打开了房门让周日的空气流通
尽管工地的灰尘也不甘寂寞地跟着飘进来
我还是热烈欢迎

仔细聆听
离我房间几十尺距离的那片树林
有鸟儿在吱吱叫着
树林里的虫声其实也没停止过
只是到底我们有没有用心去聆听

我想窗前那一道公路
在周日最美丽了
没有巨型的搬运卡车
没有的士的川流不息
只有偶然几辆的私家车和摩托
传来令人怀念至极的引擎跑动声

我的家没有山明水秀的景色
没有城市的过分喧哗
现在我完全沉浸在周日的这种氛围里
怀念着家的怀抱
十天后我便能回去了……

唯一美中不足的
是少了妈妈在庭院种花时
铁铲和瓷花盆摩擦的声音
还有午餐时间妈妈炒菜时
铁镬与镬铲耍功夫的铿锵声
还有爸爸在周日悠闲却沉闷的环境下
意兴地按开电视

还有
一直不离不弃的熟悉声音
988 MY FM ai FM

如果每个周日都是这样
我愿意每个周日都不出门
享受灰尘飘过鼻前的味道

窗外的窗

2010-01-30T09:05:00.000-08:00

挡住了一片辽阔的天空

换来人造的美感

嗯，总好过什么也没得看

只有建筑工地惯例的嘈杂声

和刺眼的照明灯

:) 美啊

关心

2010-01-27T03:53:00.000-08:00

如果不是关心
人家才懒得批评你

找回self-respect吧

失恋的感觉

2010-01-25T04:00:00.000-08:00

今早在食堂吃着云吞面
突然心头涌上一股失恋的感觉
就是一股莫名其妙
酸溜溜的失恋的感觉
后来想起了他

怎么3年前失恋时不曾出现
到3年后的今天竟莫名而涌上心头来？
难道……
是那碗云吞面？

乱房间乱心情

2010-01-23T08:26:00.000-08:00

从未忍受过自己这么乱的房间

可我竟然没要动手整理

看来我做人做得越来越退步了

财神不屑

2010-01-23T01:58:00.000-08:00

财神突然不开心起来
也可能是因为看到太多黄金屋而特别开心
才会对不想留在黄金屋的我们感到不屑

自我到新加坡来
每次到那些没空调的黄金屋
我的头都会疼痛起来
尽管看到遍地黄金是多么兴奋的一件事
可是最后还是捧着晕眩的脑袋回家
收获不大

希望我的财神今天拾了不少黄金
可以开心回啦~ :)

不写了

2010-01-21T09:30:00.000-08:00

不能畅所欲言
已经找不到写博客的理由

一线感触

2010-01-16T03:36:00.000-08:00

忙忙碌碌浑浑噩噩为了什么

突然想定下来找个人来爱就好

懊恼

2010-01-11T14:45:00.000-08:00

不明白
为什么有人会选择这般偷鸡摸狗的生活
不要堂堂正正地做人
已经是大学生了
难道不懂为自己的所作所为负责？

最可怕的
是她竟然能为了
自己的口袋、自己的方便、自己的一意孤行
牺牲他人的名誉
约束他人的生活
侵犯他人的私人空间

我受够了

作业有感

2009-11-29T22:41:00.000-08:00

我说过他是我最怕的古人

我和他的智商

有如上智与下愚般的距离

他的天理性命论

永远是我无法想象得到的

而偏偏作业就是写他

要接触他写的一手材料

必须细读原文

一字一句也不放过

庆幸我细读的是他的社仓记

比起他高深莫测的性命论

简单得多了

然这“简单得多”

对我来说一点也不简单

从开始懵懵懂懂地去见指导老师

到被余英时教授的得君觉民所困住

结果被指导老师猛然一推

要求我和作业伙伴走出余英时的框框

我几乎当场崩溃

回到宿舍就感觉昏眩

看了医生说我高血压

可朱子也不曾放弃我

我却一直想放弃他

今天终于把作业交到老师的手中

忽觉如释重负

而还有两张试卷

已迫不及待地等着宰我

和非中文系的同学合作

是一项挑战

我读了三年中文系基础依然摇摇欲坠

更何况她是SDE的二年级

虽然有时看了她写的文字会哭笑不得

然深知自己的程度其实也不相上下

就只是多了一些接近古人的经验

从她身上我看见一年级的自己

可以安慰自己说

我有成长过

有时我会羡慕隔壁组的三人帮

他们的结合似乎天衣无缝

那原来都是自己心态作祟

我是应该感到庆幸的

至少她对自己对别人对学术的态度

是没有问题的

总好比戏曲作业遇到的最大不幸

这是一次很愉快的合作

虽然作业的质量有待进步

我该衷心感谢她一路来的包容

这学期的作业

挑战性高是无疑的

折磨人的程度更不在话下

换个心态想

折磨其实就是磨练啊！

由衷感激指导老师

容老师、王老师

出生入死的作业伙伴

雨情、婉怡

这是我的福分

Juicy~

2009-11-28T05:24:00.000-08:00

According to dictionary.com
JUICY means full of juice, succulent: a juicy pear
such a lovely adjective to describe a pear, but...

how could my friend
use it to describe
my BUTT...

=.=!

趣谈

2009-11-27T06:25:00.000-08:00

三人日问我右手无名指上的戒指是谁送的
我说
前男友

她叫我别戴了
不然没有男生会接近我

言土寸很快接着说
我也没戴咧
也是没有男生接近我啊

是的
有戴没戴不都一样

其实我也只是戴爽而已
没有其他意思 :)

废纸

2009-11-26T05:25:00.000-08:00

这一片蓝蓝的

风平浪静

这一边也是蓝蓝的

波涛汹涌

始知原来自己喜欢画画

不是为了纾解压力

其实只在为自己找回一点成就感

到最后发现

它跟其他纸张无异

只不过是废纸一张

心思如废纸

请将我再循环吧

心水肿

2009-11-25T04:19:00.000-08:00

自午饭后
虫虫就在我内心蠕动着
它对我说
今天你的心有点重咧！

我也不晓得
晚餐时
虫虫竟拉紧了我开口的那条神经线
我的沉默
是不由自主的

吃了最能令自己开心的麦当劳雪糕
我说
雪糕变质了
以前放很多奶很滑很香的
尽管如此
虫虫说不好吃的雪糕也把我的心溶化了
连带积水蒸发

最多人却最少人声的地方
是很恐怖的
所以我将仆仆的播音筒挂在双耳边
越听越想高声大唱
按捺不住立刻收拾搭巴士回家
打算闭门K歌一番

回来了
没感觉了
还唱什么

你说
那是不是个很恐怖的地方？

赠挚友

2009-11-23T19:52:00.000-08:00

明日乃好友伟凯的大日子

无寿礼以赠

连赠画也只能给电子版的

但愿在家乡的你

活得快乐

中文系

2009-11-23T07:25:00.000-08:00

进入国大中文系
丢了志向然后一直感觉迷失着
师友问过将来要当些什么
我至今仍没有答案

转话题随便带过后
我就会感觉更迷惘
质问自己到底在中文系干什么
好像在混日子而已

今天突然脑海一“丁”
我看到了
我感受到了
虽然我还不懂我毕业后要当些什么
可我终于知道我在中文系了感受到了什么！

成绩虽差
但领略了这一点
总算不会感觉自己在中文系里白混了

不美的画

2009-11-23T01:08:00.000-08:00

最算画得不美

不妨从另外一个角度去看

若世上的高级动物

都能从另一个角度看事情的两面

那就不会有悲伤了

They are cute. How about mine?

2009-11-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

When my cat meets my dog....

朋友

2009-11-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

当你就希冀他那么一时的需要

他偏给不到

甚至狠狠地打沉了你

却激起更坚毅的生存力

可他就可能一生都在身边

守护着你

不能随传随到

不能有求必应

不能依赖一时

却能依赖一生

情歌

2009-11-22T09:13:00.000-08:00

當那一字一句
已不能在我腦海泛起什麽漣漪
情於我
為何物

R1 Cute Cleaners

2009-08-24T17:01:00.000-07:00

Uncle asked me, "干净吗？呵呵！(is it clean? hehe!) ", smiling in satisfaction.

Unloading my laundry from washing machine, I took a look at the floor he just cleaned. In fact I know a few hardworking cleaners in R1, and I never doubt their capability and diligence in making R1 a clean residence. The floor was really spotlessly clean and I answered him, "干净！很干净！(clean! very clean!)", without forgetting to thank him for his effort, "Thank you, Uncle!".

He then smiled even heartier. I know, he felt appreciated. And of course I do appreciate, as always.

Sometimes I wonder how many residents in R1 would treasure what the cleaners had done for us. Even not to mention "treasure", how many do acknowledge their existence and contribution? Some think that they are paid to clean up the place for us, which means the money we pay is already the token of appreciation.

When cleaners came in the early morning to clean the kitchen, then other residents went in to make breakfast and did not clear up the mess, cleaners got blamed in the end. Anything, for instance shoes, went missing, cleaners were first suspected in residents' mind. Cluster gate found unlocked, aha, cleaners again. Some saw them resting and chatting in the lounge, and claimed that they were slacking off and should not be using RESIDENTS' Lounge.

Many residents take things for granted. But I see with my eyes, how hard and much they had done for us. I see proud in their eyes when I say "Thank you!" for their hard work.

How sweet to hear your friend praising that the cake you made is delicious.
How satisfying to hear your mother commending that the errant you did is great.
How gratifying for the cleaners to hear just a "thank you" from a resident. Could you imagine?

I respect them so much.
Though they are not highly educated, they are more disciplined and diligent than I am.

Be contented with what we have.
Value what others have done for us.
No one owes us anything, but don't be stingy to give smiles and a word of thanks.

距離

2009-08-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

久違思念的滋味
其實已忘記如何思念意中人
卻告訴好友說我明白她思念情人卻不能相見的感受
荒謬吧

兒女私情不應該是這時候的話題
山高的參考書靜候在書桌上
我再不努力今年就完蛋了
更別説要做榮譽學士唉

可最近好友為單思所擾
做好友的惟能給她百分百的體諒與精神支柱
最終還得靠她自己釋懷

為之腦海浮現“距離”之惑 - 這具體又抽象的東西
遠距離的戀愛是痛苦的吧？
新加坡人謂之LDR- Long-Distant Relationship

有些人也許有種錯覺：

“你有男朋友嗎？”
“有。”
“他也住這裡嗎？”
“不。他在英國讀書。”
“哇，那麽遠。那你一定想死他了！”

比較

“他也住這裡嗎？”
“不。他還在馬來西亞念大學。”
“哦。那還好，很近而已，見面容易。偶爾就想想他咯！”

是不是相隔的公里越長感覺越難想見？
是不是感覺越難想見思念就越深越濃越難自拔？

我想
情到濃時就算他就在你身邊
你也會很想念他
真正的距離是度尺所不能測量的

有人問某友
“啊，你從中囯老遠過來新加坡讀書，定很想家吧！”

我家也只不過離新加坡一小時機程
雖然不是從“老遠”過來
但想家的情結絕比某友來得緊扣
至少大部分的中國朋友
都在自己感覺最舒服的地方休息了足足三個月
我則有超過三個月沒回家看看兩老了

真正的距離是度尺所不能測量的
思念更不能以距離來度量……

一定要熬過來

2009-07-13T19:59:00.000-07:00

這一番忙碌讓我錯過了許多唯一的一次
惟有安慰自己患得患失！

學姐們畢業朋友都“有時閒”出席她們的畢業禮
唯獨我“貴人善忙”
Facebook的合照少我這張臉
在別人眼中沒什麽大不了
自己看了只能獨自心酸

本來我也“有時閒”開開心心去祝賀
到最後都”怪“自己“樂於助人”
選擇接了一份兼職（賺些外快之餘也能幫輕一下宿舍經理）

每天算是冒著生命危險送飯給被隔離的人
送飯后就忙Welcome Fest的Publicity
到最後自己也病倒了
有可能也中了H1N1

挨了多少天睡眠不足的日子
終于趁病“有時閒”寫寫來抒發不平衡的情緒

我瞞著阿娘做這份兼職
若讓她知道我病了她定罵個狗血淋頭

如今新加坡進入了mitigation階段
沒人需要被隔離了
我的兼職也就這樣結束了
接踵而來的是新生陸續入住宿舍
身為RA的我更是忙得沒時間開電腦
更不用説Facebook！

感覺這個世界沒“公平”這一個詞
有人拿跟你同樣的薪水不代表他的工作量也跟你一樣
有人做跟你同樣的職位不代表他也像你一樣盡責
有人愛取巧別人看了說那是能幹聰明
有人愛默默付出可是沒人看到

我卻是在取巧與默默付出之間

少説話多行動這才是我應該做的！

臭脾气

2009-06-04T07:03:00.000-07:00

经期明明刚过
怎么脾气比来野时更暴躁
坏脾气又来了
傅朋友听了一定很失望
也许我从来就没改变过
没改过我的臭脾气

我需要一个比我更厉害的人来压制我
可是说到底
最大的敌人还是自己
自己不控制自己的情绪
还有谁愿意出手相助

玮缨啊玮缨
你何时才会长大
你是不是荷尔蒙失调

师奶滚开！

2009-06-03T11:16:00.000-07:00

最讨厌

没风度
不要脸
师奶性格婆婆妈妈
安娣举止扭扭捏捏
不想见他时就喜欢出现

的那个男人

他别再出现在我眼前了好吗
我顶不顺了
他要去每个cluster捡鞋子就自己去吧
他别浪费我时间谈些废话题了

已经很明显要避开他了
在食堂已装作看不见他
我在跟位女性朋友谈心事
他便不要脸地坐了下来
特地用广东话交谈
他还死不要脸

我去book羽球场
真是衰运又碰见他
又不要脸地book我旁边那个场
说要人多热闹
他知道自己很冤气的吗？
他真以为自己很受欢迎啊？

啊！！！！！
短时间内我不想再见到他
他好烦!
滚开吧！

厚脸皮

2009-05-30T22:46:00.000-07:00

有位好朋友M
身边发生许多不幸之事让她越变越刚强
可没人看见她脆弱的一面
其实她也很需要大家的关怀

天生不是天才
课业多靠自己加倍的努力
她的坚毅让我佩服
最欣赏她的态度——厚脸皮

厚脸皮并不是贬义形容词
相反的是对她赞扬有加的褒义词

厚脸皮的人
EQ（情绪商数）比脸皮薄的人来得高
厚脸皮的人
更懂得不耻下问收益更多
厚脸皮的人
不太在意身边嘲笑的声音勇往直前

脸皮厚不等于不要脸
不要脸是无耻的
脸皮厚是磨练出来的终生受用

多希望RA Team里能有多些这样脸皮厚的人
而非一味有口批评却不付诸于行动
大家脸皮厚一点
Welcome Fest的成功就在不远处

庆幸认识M这种脸皮厚的人
还得多向她看齐！

Back to Reality

2009-05-29T20:14:00.000-07:00

Forgot to mention in previous post that one of my new year resolutions was achieved! However my wallet would go into holes as OKR, TWH, WNC and I had a bet on results. A treat of dim sum buffet for at least 3 is inevitable =(

Since I said that my holidays had ended, I should tell how my holidays began and went. It officially started after my last exam ended. In fact I forgot what I have done after that, and I don't wanna recall what I have done too. I just know I was not totally free.

The peak of my holidays was the Penang-Ipoh-KL trip, in actual only Penang-Ipoh for me as I promised my mom to help her make dumplings for our chinese festival. While Ipoh is my hometown, it shouldn't be counted as trip. Sad, means my only trip was to Penang. =(

Pictures of my trip were uploaded by WY (hehe, of course not me) in her facebook. I tagged myself almost for every picture as the trip was such fun and memorable and I couldn't miss any of the pictures! I still miss the laksa, ice kacang, cha kueh tiao, ou jian, rojak in Penang so badly!!!

Going down to Ipoh, my turn to be the host. I acknowledge I was really such a bad tour guide and I shouldn't admit I am from Ipoh. What to do? I am that bad in recognizing roads and directions! Sigh... They finally went down to KL and I stayed at home spending most of my time with family =)

Time with family was precious. I couldn't describe how joyous I was the time I went to the door to welcome my sister back from KL. She greeted me with beautiful smiles and I felt like going to hug her at once!

The few days at home were so peaceful and blissful. I like listening to my sister's stories. I can bear listening to my mom's complaints. I would try helping mom as much as I can in every meal preparation. Life like that was so carefree. And I finally learned how to make dumplings. It requires correct folding skills so not to let the filling out during cooking. Thanks mom!

Sunday, my sister drove back to KL in the evening as Monday is a working day. She left and my room was empty again...

Monday, my last day in Ipoh, I asked form-6 old classmates out for lunch. We then went to sing k and had so much fun.

Back to home, last dinner with family in May 2009. The dishes were simple but delicious.
My mom said, "hmm, the Sabah green beans is so crispy and nice!".

My father heard it and replied, "hmm, the white tofu is so cold, smooth and nice!" (In fact my mom always complains that father like to eat the "uncooked" white box-tofu, freshly bought from market and then put it in refrigerator and then serve it with soy sauce only. Mom thinks that it is weird to eat like this.)

Hearing the utterance from both of them, I was "forced" to mention the third dish (forgot what dish was that) also, "hmmmmm, the xxx is also nice lar, very nice..."

Eventually three of us around the dining table burst out laughing (^o^). After meal I went to pack my things and be ready to leave for Singapore. Father sent me off and I met three old school mates (2 from NUS, 1 from NTU) on bus. We reached Taman Jurong and took cab back to NUS...

My holidays ended. Back to reality.

开始？结束？

2009-05-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

已经不能像中学一样
把生活中每桩值得纪念的小事
一一用密密麻麻的方块字
写在日记本里
从考试期间到现在
值得纪念的事累计得实在太多

有人说今天成绩出炉了
假期仿佛才真正开始
我则相反
成绩出炉是我假期的结束
接下来的日子
要好好为Welcome Fest努力
做好兼职找外快
读些书打稳基础来继续第三年的课业
好忙啊

是不是考得稍微好成绩的人
成绩出炉前一天都回出现失眠等焦虑症状？
凌晨四时方萌睡意
调好十一时闹钟准时起床面对现实
怎知九点多就被短讯吵醒
爬起来面对一个小时的忧虑等待

我之所以出现失眠焦虑症状
也不是真的考得很好
只是比前三个学期的“好看”多了
而前三个学期都不曾出现失眠症状
希望接下来的成绩放榜天也能失眠
好让成绩“好看”些

朋友都在自个儿的部落格“上载成绩册”
我还是不敢献丑
因为实在拿过太多C了
这学期也不例外
只是幸好可以将它S/U

劳老师给我的等级出乎意料
上学期的四书已搞得我不能S/U我的GEK
想必这次也难逃
深知自己的努力远远不达老师给学生的目标
还决心不拿老师的《庄子》了
因此这次的等级实在“不敢当”

曾经在Reading Week温习期间
在白板这样写道：

历史啊实在太复杂太难搞了
当时读得几乎放弃
以为都“通死”
怎知成绩死而复生
我想是教授们太慷慨了吧

Translation班仅15人
没“水鱼垫尸底”了
这个等级我应得

Z教授曾是我在部落格篇中批评的对象
学期前已知道他的“厉害”
我仍决心一搏挑战自己
结果我战胜了 *自豪*

GEM2900是我第一张看了题目会让我手抖的考卷
脑海还即时出现五分钟的短暂空白
记得当天我翻着翻着卷纸却没下笔
因为实在一题都不懂
冷静后开始动笔
却斜视右手边的一位男同学
也是将卷纸翻来翻去笔未触纸
哈哈我在心里偷笑
幸好不是只有我一个
刚刚好让我拿了个Satisfactory等级
放下心头大石

成绩出后往外逛街我一整天
买了一大堆水果奖赏自己
我的假期就这样结束了……

FW: Spread the Stupidity

2009-05-13T22:23:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered...

Why do drugstores make the sick all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front?
Why do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke?
Why does the sunlight lighten our hair, but darken our skin?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?
What is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavour, and dish-washing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of the day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there a mouse-flavoured cat food?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

~Just read for FUN, don't take it serious~

崩溃

2009-05-04T23:39:00.000-07:00

感觉脑子日益萎缩

不仅不能容纳新事物

连旧事也几乎忘得七零八落

看我文笔就知道了

这么烂的水准

怀疑自己是否开始患上痴呆症

有种崩溃的感觉

源自于一打开考卷

发现没有一题懂得回答

的那种精神状况

手跟着颤抖起来

也许这就是我在大学的第一次不及格

讨厌考试

不是因为考试不好

而是自己不懂得处理考试期间的自己

生理心理失衡

昼夜颠倒精神紧绷

那根本就不是自己

不妒国大生太聪明

只能怪自己太愚笨

难听的说人是不笨的

唯懒者自称

崩溃了

为何要这样勉强自己？

可以找回以前自信健康的我吗？

回味

2009-04-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

說起那長途跋涉越“峽”過關的梅菜燜煮肉

心血來潮

今天終于“開封”入鍋

做了梅菜米粉

一邊煮就一邊不自禁的想起媽媽

想下想下好像沒想起爸爸

似乎忽略了他

然後也去想想他

才算公平嘛！

煮畢便放下手頭上的一切

專心品嘗媽媽的心機

好香好味好好吃

慶幸當天沒拒絕媽媽把梅菜帶過來

以前和朋友說起回家

我都會投訴在家的媽媽煮太多、太頻

害我回去也沒機會到外頭吃吃怡保美食

吃著吃著就覺得很愧疚

這種味道不知在多少年内還有機會吃到

而怡保美食的味道只要回去處處皆是

一陣冷氣沖上大腦

若我不學煮這盤菜

若干年后

不管找多少怡保五星級廚師

也煮不出這種味道的

記得今年在墨爾本的新年

媽媽堅持要到菜市買菜煮一頓飯

我們兄弟姐妹都勸她別操勞

來到澳洲旅遊就要享受

況且當地也有很多美食

當時媽媽煮了粥

我卻沒多嘗幾口

因爲前幾天吃下太多山珍海味

後悔想不起那口粥的味道

人越長越老

似乎有越多心願要了

想多些回家陪兩老

卻不是我所能控制

如今不止要珍惜回家的每分每秒

還要學下母親的拿手好菜

就算媽媽不在

菜吃在口裏淚滴在心裏

總算可以回味……

帶禁品過海關

2009-04-17T04:04:00.000-07:00

幾乎每次從怡保會新加坡

都會帶禁品入境

盜版光碟盜版軟件香口膠

大一也真是誇張

把大大件的“砂煲浪昌”也帶過境

雖不違法

但不知檢察員透過掃描機器看見了

有否偷笑呢

豬肉當然也是禁品

有次特地帶過幾“雙”臘腸

回來大快朵頤爽！

大二也沒有如此大膽了

也嫌行李太重

這次是媽媽硬塞給我的

兩小盒梅菜燜煮肉

是我這次回家特地為我燜的

在家我也吃不停口

在新加坡找不到的美味

想起來也真好笑

臨走前媽媽就把兩小圓盒的梅菜用報紙包好好

我看了看有點不妥

問：兩小盒哪會這麽高啊？

媽媽哈哈哈地笑了起來

我說：你到底還放了什麽進去啊

原來塞了兩塊大的熟豬肉

嚇死我了！我說：

你光明正大塞兩塊豬肉給我

梅菜我還可以騙海關說是蔬菜

這兩塊肉肉的東西我該怎麽解釋啊

明白媽媽的苦心

我也沒責怪她什麽

只笑笑地告訴她萬一搜出就要扔掉

那時就浪費她一番心機了

媽媽也笑笑地拿回豬肉出來

媽媽就是這樣

“想盡辦法”去“做犯法的小事”

哈哈讓人哭笑不得

期待回家

2009-04-13T23:12:00.000-07:00

今天心情沉重

回来整个早上和下午没见半个朋友

一早爬楼梯去交迟交的垃圾作业

交了作业应该轻松才是

但还有两份紧紧跟在后头

想必又要迟交了

沉重因为不习惯

不习惯又回到自己一个人

想念妈妈在身旁唠唠叨叨

能陪她聊天陪她煮饭

想念爸爸的风趣幽默

还有他买的爱心早餐

“二十四孝”作业虽写得够烂

（多烂？没论题，在玩砌字游戏而已）

但就算我能写得天花乱坠

都不如触动我一丝情线

其中最为触动我心弦的一个孝子故事：

（韩）伯瑜，亳州人，少时有过，母笞之，泣。母曰：“吾他日笞之，未尝泣，今泣，何也？”对曰：“往日杖痛，知母康健，今杖不痛，知母力衰，是以悲泣。”

我说过与其写孝不如行孝

这次回去我真的做到了

虽不至于“忧心长粪”、“割股疗亲”、“恣蚊饱血”

但几千年来中国人极力宣扬的“孝”精神

我到了21岁才真正做到

我为过往的20年感到遗憾惭愧

交了烂作业

丢了颗智慧牙

却得到精神上的智慧

比成绩来得更为宝贵

这次回去见爸妈安然无恙

黑发还多了几根

才稍微安心

回家感觉真好

我现在才明白为何人说家人比爱人重要

男朋友的爱可以“滥”

母亲对自己的爱永远“忠”

不想回来自己一个人生活

更不敢想象若爸妈其中一个突然离开

剩下那一个该怎么一个人生活

不该想象也不轮到我去想

这是“天职” 需知“天命”

做好自己该做的就是了

与其怀念在家的日子

不如期待下次回家的机会

答应妈妈一定在端午节前回去替她裹粽子的

因妈妈常说她没精力做这么多事了

要工作要管家要照顾爸爸的饮食起居

还要为三个不在身边的子女操心

期待期待期待期待至极

也不能增加离开宿舍那屈指可数的告假日

是否越是短暂

人才越懂珍惜……

子曰：父母之年不可不知也，

一则以喜，一则以忧。

不会读书

2009-04-10T03:25:00.000-07:00

真觉得自己不会读书

不会思考

看的每字每句

为何只停留在纸面上？

无复思考

无所体会

过目遂忘

不只我的思想带有成见

连眼睛亦如此

一直在过滤文字

以致思想狭隘

孤陋寡闻

想跟老师说

我只想做孔子口中的小人

并无大志如君子

但求活得问心无愧

我想写的作业

不想只停留在纸面上

而应当发自于内心有所领悟

付诸于亲身力行

写孝不如为孝

写仁应先为仁

可我两头不到岸

真的是我不够努力吗

姐姐说

我还不懂自己要什么

是的

自来到新加坡

失了目标丢了理想

日子过得越来越茫然

读古文读得一头雾水

始不能了解其真义

到底我在为别人而活

还是在为自己而活？

孝？

2009-04-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

该死的我

至今仍未定题目

明知“现代意义”绝对不是老师那杯茶

却死硬着发了邮件给老师

唉预料中事

题目被弹了回来

下星期一就要交了

为此作业看了好多孝子故事

可就想不出什么论点

因为此时我最想做的

就是回家尽孝

我所谓的“现代意义”

真的是现代意义！

不是瞎想的

与其说孝说得天花乱坠

我想行动最实际

想起以前对父母的态度实在太差

看了孝子故事心有愧疚

真不想写什么二十四孝作业

只想回家好好侍奉父母而已

逃課

2009-04-02T17:03:00.000-07:00

鼓起勇氣決定逃課

昨天真逃了

kj說他的課是生活調劑

我也不否認的

但我逃課的原因

真的不是要拒絕這種生活調劑

而是學期將近結束

老師吩咐多次要“翻翻”的史記

我竟沒翻過

真不想辜負老師一片用心

也該為自己著想

“翻書”也是對自己好罷了

無知就是無知

是不讀書的無知

竟在架上找不到幾本《史記》

不知史記乃在《二十四史》裏

雖只翻了翻其索引和補丁

總算一覽其浩大淵博

逃課得值得

等下就到圖書館拿瀧川龜太郎的本子

竟有迫不及待之感

奇怪！

What makes you continue to be RA?

2009-03-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

Such a good question, from a friend of mine.

I didn't think much, and answered,

"Money."

Huh?

I think if I ponder over the question, I should have answered,

"Cause I like serving others."

Sorry, this is definitely not a real me. I would frankly acknowledge that I don't like serving others, except my parents, my siblings and my loved ones.

I have been feeling so homesick, thus never hesitated to answer "money". If not money, I would have already bought bus ticket back to Ipoh for 3 months during vacation, don't even bother to do internship. If not money, I would have not answered the call from the male resident asking me to bring to him to another level to see his girlfriend at 4am. If not money, I would not bother to print and paste so many notices to remind my cluster mates not to mess up the public kitchen. If not money, I would have signed up for summer programmes and travelled around.

I admit, money makes me an RA. However, does it mean my passion has gone?

I don't think so. At least my friend still can feel it. Though money "forces" me to be an RA, I know my responsibilities once I am in that position. Money doesn't force me to be passionate, but as I do job, I can't help putting all my effort to do the best.

And here comes passion. So natural.

妈

2009-03-22T19:55:00.000-07:00

每每皆妈妈摇长途电话过来

尽管我的电话配套余额剩多

我总给自己借口不打回家

但每次妈打来

都因为“技术”上难题要讨教

（妈妈多不谙科技现代化之事）

问题解决便盖上电话

今早听见妈的声音“感冒”了

真的病了

想慰问多几句却欲言又止

这叫爱在心口难开？

成长在含蓄的生活环境

想表达“我爱你”时

却总是说不出口

忘了是几年前的事

母亲节尴尬地送了妈一个吻

她竟给我一个让我不会再做下一次的表情

尽管如此

待会还是会把亲自为她做的生日卡寄出

妈，生日快乐！

誤眾

2009-03-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

連教授都亂來一通，難怪學生也帶著成見讀書。

上漢語導論，是逼不得已；尤其是這學期，是挑戰自己。有時覺上課無聊，但偶爾聼教授講無聊笑話，也是种讓自己放鬆的消遣。教授的笑話（或可稱廢話）涉及世界各地，好多新事物也從他口中得知，正反映了我的孤陋寡聞。

今天終于忍無可忍，對他那“禮記”解釋成“禮貌的記載”不能不慍！

這不就是勞老師今天說的“誤眾”嗎？課堂上大都是大一的莘莘學子，就這樣被“誤”了！悲哉！

自適處

First Self-made Sky Lantern 孔明燈

First Time Firing A Gun ^o^

First Time Playing Angklung

First Lunch with Nantah Lake 南大湖

First Hakka Lui Cha 客家擂茶 in Singapore

First Freshmen Orientation Camp in NUS, Singapore

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